I KNOW okey???……

I’m smart enough to know you are a disturbing tantrum

And in fact… I know YOU ARE A STALKER

STOP stalking me, and MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS…. GET A LIFEEEEEEE !!!!!!!!!

Thank you…

• Hei, what’s up ?

• Miss You..

Those are familiar sentences,aren’t they? And maybe they become unfimiliar if they are intended for families, espesially parents (perhaps for some people). Most people feel more comfortable to share with their close friends or boy/girlfriend. And just few people tell theirs to the parents, start from the smallest up to the biggest things. A bit strange, considering the parents actually are the first person we have known since our born, growing, and living like it is now. so when was the last time you talked with your parents? whether yesterday when you told them about it was time to pay your tuition fees? or was it when you told about love life? hopefully we do that not only when there’s a problem and need a hand from our parents but also when we are fine and just wanna know news from our parents (in this case, we miss them).

I miss you, is a sentence i always wanna tell to my parents. However i am not type of person who blatantly tell the words to others easily. i prefer to show my love through deeds than words.

i have a friend who is very romantic with his parents, even more to his mother. he doesnt feel hesitate to say, “Mom, i really miss you” or “I love you Mom”, and so does his mother. She always gives similar feedbacks to him. He expresses his feelings not only through calls, but also deeds. Proven by asking them frequently about their news, and also his to them, they are really looked like close friends. I am really impressed with him, because he is more expressive and certainly braver than me. Sometimes i wonder, what the hell was it that made me feel awkward expressing my feelings through words? Was it because of shame?? pride??? Well, maybe conversation below can make everything looks clearer (Of course, these are my self-to self interview), just check these out :

Me            : Do you miss your parents right now?
My self    : Absolutely
Me            : Did you call/text them today?
My self    : Well, they always call and text me everyday
Me            : And what do you often talk about?
My self : Ordinary things, like my news, academic things, my health, etc..
Me            : Who more often ask?
My self    : My parents
Me            : Who more often talk?
My self    : Me
Me       : Does your parents often tell about problems they’re facing?
My self    : Seldom

i created an image that parents are the childrens’s problem solver. So when there’re problems we told them intensely. And i thought with they never tell their problems, they’re in fine condition. That reflexion finally embedded in my mind and makes me seldom to express my feelings. I thought they dont need that because everything’s fine. And by knowing my news and we communicate each other by mobile was enough to show i miss and love them (i thought). But, hhh.. everybody knows that the best way to communicate with each other is by face-to-face way. Many misunderstandings occur due to communication via voice, text and etc.  I’ve been planting and growing trees of selfish thoughts and i could reap the fruit of pride. Yap, i think by having thought like that i was an arrogant daughter (this is my opinion about my own self. There’s no intention to judge others!!) Then what is my next plan? Probably i wont directly call or text them frontally say, ” I love and miss you, Mom.. Dad”. I’ll start from easy ways but meaningful. Like reverse my position with my parents when calling. I’ll occasionally call them and become their interviewers, and alhamdulillah if i can occasionally become a good listener and their problem solver. During the rest of my life, i’ll use it to serve and make my parents happy with what i have. Amiiin..

I remember few nice words they’ve ever told dir/indirectly to me:

• Take care of your self, my beautiful-sholehah-clever-little daughter

• Papa miss you much, dear

Hmm… i really miss them!!! Mom and Dad… I MISS YOU  SOOO MUCH

Love,

your lovely daughter

As I said before, the dreams began changing with the times, and now in my age my dreams are more directed and focused, I had a dream to work in a place that can make me learn the other’s culture, full of challenges and meet more people with different personalities. Well.. basically I can get a lot of new lessons because of it. Lately I really have been liking things that related to psychology (just a little bit ). And I was directed to make the oil and gas companies as my main target. And certainly there are many people with different nationalities, different characters, full of challenges jobdesk and all are united by language and communication. That’s very amazing, isn’t it? hehehe. That is one of my dreams. What about yours?

Thank God, He answered my prayer by giving me the opportunity to tread my dream. In the beginning of  February, for exactly on 5-6 February 2011, UGM held an event “Career Days” where prestigious companies participated in the event. I applied at one of the largest oil and gas service company, Schlumberger (read: Schlamberghze). And luckily in the day after, I got a message  from the Career Days’s comittee like this:

Alhamdulillah, and I went with Wulan who also passed the administration screening in the monday morning  earlier, it was at 6:30 am, to find the location of the test first (do not be late for the test!!). Then approached 08.00 o’clock  in the morning more people came and I knew some of them, like Aan, Mita, Damar, etc.. and the jobseeker made very long queues. Hahaha…fyuuh :0

Until the test’s time came, we were divided according to test numbers (i got number 010, hooray) and we walked into a room randomly but only 50 people had turn at once time. The first test was “3 minutes to be a star.” It was kinda short interview, each participant did the test without depend on the test numbers and you should take one question in front of the interviewer and give a good answer in English within no more 3 minutes. At that time I got 3rd turn  and my question was “If you were a manager, what would you do to make sure your team work safely?”. And Alhamdulillah I passed the 1st test. In my opinion, the officers were very professional because they could make decisions in a short time to choose 100 people of more than 1000 participants. My suggestion in this kind of test is, give a different answer, to the point and do not let you get blank even though only 5 seconds if you do not want to be stopped by the officer.

The 2nd test was written test, such as math, physics and kind of those. And they were all in english multiple choices. My advice to solve this kind of test is you should study about the SNMPTN or high school test because they are all still quite basic. Alhamdulillah I also passed this phase.

The 3rd test was english forum group discussion which directly held immediately after the announcement on the same day. Each group was divided into 5 members and all groups were given the same topic of discussion and we did it  by individual and group. The topic was general anyway, so take it easy and dont be worried ’cause everyone would be able to give an opinion as optimal as possible. And the officers would be distributed to each group to check our activity in the discussion group. And 30 or 45 minutes after,  each member of the group should present their work individually. so in this case, there wont be a person who too show off that do not give a chance for others to speak up. all participant will get a chance to speak up. My suggestion is tell your opinions with high self confidence and good language. I passed the test with 2 others from Elins. They are Wulan and Damar, yeiiii ^__^

The next test was interview in the hotel where the officers of SLB stayed, at that time it was located at Novotel Hotel. I got first turn to be interviewed. And beyond my expectation, i was directly interviewed by the user. oh My god! the questions were more about technical. unfortunately, I had to stop at this test hehe, it’s okay for me. I was already happy because that was my first experience in following the job test and other advantage was i can practice English in two days. hahaa.. nothing to lose anyway. the most important is the experience.

person who failed does not mean he/she is a failed person. because failure is a first gateway to get success. And remember, keep on dreaming because dreams will take you to a better future. And make these guidelines to guide us in pursuing our dreams :

God gives us what we need because God knows what are the best for us. If there are things we want but haven’t reached yet, it is not because God does not grant it for us but it could ONLY be postponed until it be the right time for us to get it OR God could just replace it with something else better for us. Maybe we just have not realized it yet

Love,

adelicious

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I made it my self for my beloved one “Widyanti Nurmala Wulan”. I don’t need to say much about this, the picture tells you everything

Happy birthday to you dear

Enjoy your birthday so much that it becomes memorable for your lifetime and keep smiling

Love,

adelicious

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A few days ago, i got a valuable experience. What was that? i got a situation that i played not as the A role anymore but as the B role. And who was the A? It was my own bestfriend. I didnt know where she learnt how to play the role as best as that time, and honestly she played the role (acted) like me and made me amazed. WOW (LOL). And you know what? I became understand how they (my bestfriends) felt when they acted as the B role. As her bestfriend of course i didnt want to see her in a sadness. And i thought in my mind at that time : “Whats wrong? I think you are strong, crazy and cheerful, so why are u crying like this?”. Why did i think like that? Because that was the first time i saw her cry in my entire life. And in the fact it was hardly to make her cheerful again in many ways. She apparently didnt require any advices or solutions, a thing she was needed was a shoulder for crying on and that was refer to me, her own bestfriend. And i realized  this was it! Thats why when i cried, my bestfriends just said only one/two words. Things that are more needed when you are crying is take action than keep talking. For examples patting your back/shoulder, giving a huge and smiling face, etc. And I tried it, and happily she looked better. An action is more appreciated than a talk. It remainds me about a phrase “OMDO” it means omong doank. hahhaa… yeah but its sure although its just a smile that you can give, it means a lot. Smile reveales that you are not alone. For her, it means Ade is here, your bestfriend is here, we are fun-hard together. Moreover she could understand it with just my smiling face. This is called real bestfriend.

I have many friends but hard to find the real friends among them. More i know about people, the more i know which can be a friend for me and which is not. I wanna tell you about my dullness. That was a time when i was still unstable. I looked for a friend that could make my popularity become high. Well, that was so pity. That was stupid! I used to think popularity was  everything to me (a girl who is perfectionist, unstable and ambitious) then when the popularity was successfully reached i felt empty because that was so not me who did the fake things. Finally i was bored and unhappy and started to make those out of me. I started to do things that i like without coercion from others. And i feel much better now. It is part of my life called Freedom. And let’s guess.. i’ve found my true friends. They are who dont look at to my popularity and dont manipulate me. Love Love Love xoxo :-*

Love,

adelicious

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